# 40

Hi there,

I know it has been a while since I posted, but I have been working on which direction to take from here. I have started posting the letters I received from Craig after he was arrested and sent off to prison.

Here is an excerpt from a letter he wrote on Christmas day, 2003

You ask: How I got to this point? I was looking at a future without the boyz. I know what divorce feels like to a little boy. All the school troubles, social challenges etc. Some dads seem to be able to walk away. I couldn’t! Was it the permanence of deportation? Maybe. I felt so alone, so dead. I had no purpose, no future, I wanted to die.

Another one: The time in here is painfully slow and my feet are painfully cold. At night they hurt too much to sleep. Our blanket is not soft so it doesn’t mold to your body. It is stiff so it leaves big pockets of air and openings. When you roll over you touch a new spot that is freezing.

The good thing about the letters though is they are reminding me of things that happened after he went to prison, so that info I will be sharing on here for you all. It's incredible that even after he went to prison he continued to try and manipulate me and the children.

Thank you all for your continued support! We now have over 40,000 page views!!


Until next time, always Trust Your Gut!!